My brothers girlfriend is disgusted with me because I told her I want a man
Since my last “relationship” last year I decided that celebacy is the only way forward. Just stay without it (“it” being sex and men) because life is just easier (loads of limiting beliefs in that sentence I know but bear with me it gets worse 
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Then I told my brothers girlfriend that I want a man in my life and she was completely disgusted with me. How could I want a man? She just couldn’t understand it. It seems I had shattered some fantasy for her in which I was super efficient wonder woman and needed no one.
Why is it that people think that about women who like to be independent? I thought it was actually only the men I dated that thought that way. Eventually the conversation about “not being good enough” would come up because some how me wanting to be a sistah that does it for herself was too much for them.
Somehow being an independent woman equals needing no one and yet it actually means the complete opposite – for me anyway – because being independent means more than ever I really value someone being by my side to share things with and to talk things through.
This sistah loves doing it for herself when it comes to business but I really don’t want to end up a sistah doing it for herself in any other way….. if you know what I mean 
Why Is Tithing Such A rip off?
Why is tithing such a rip off when I get such an uplift and a feeling of love from being in church? Why isn’t it seen as a gift?
Why do so many people dislike the fact that I give money to my church and my Pastor when they go into a shop and buy ciggarettes or stand in a bar and drink alcohol?
Why is it mainly non-believers who don’t believe in giving money to church and who believe it’s a way to get money out of weak people?
Why aren’t motivational events that uplift you for a few hours and then have you return to your old state of worry and fear a rip off?
Why is it that NOTHING has come close to providing me with the peace, joy and serenity I feel since finding my church GoodNews Ministries and yet to suggest that I give them 10% of everything I earn is met with complete shock?
When are we going to realise that giving is about giving from the heart? Have you ever bought something for someone you love just because you love them and you knew they would love it?Well I give because I know Jesus loves it.
My Pastor can’t do anything if I buy him a cow or a chicken – the old days of tithing. Money is the easiest thing to tithe plus it helps the church to function and I have even been encouraged to tithe my time and smiles (yes you can tithe smiles too ) so it’s not always about money but to keep supporting my spiritual development my church needs help.
Please watch this video and answer a question for me…….
What would be on your cardboard testimony?
Diane
P.S. I want to thank and bless Scott McQueen from Just A Thought for bringing this video to my attention today
My cardboard testimony
Insecure, full of worry and doubt……. [turn it over]
Full of faith, joy and peace trusting in His love for me.
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Any dream interpretors in the house?
I can’t sleep because I have been completely freaked out by a dream that has left me so scared I cant close my eyes and go back to sleep so I thought either I talk it out or write it out. Its 3.30am so talking to anyone is out of the question because as much as they love me my friends would KILL me if I rang them now and my partner isn’t well so I don’t want to call him either.
So the dream….. I’m at different venues. I dont recognise any of the venues. The first place is a large football stadium and there is a man with a strong upper body and only thighs for legs. He crawls along the ground, finds someone, jumps on their shoulders and wraps his legs and arms around their face and suffocates them. As people are being suffocated they make this sound of desperation as they panic and fight for air.
Everyone runs away and after the stadium I got into a four poster bed that was in a tree with a friend. We drew the curtain round the bed but I was worried that we wouldnt see the killer coming so left my friend in there and carried on running. The next place was an office and this time I had my youngest son with me. As I arrived everyone looked scared so I knew the man was already there killing people and I couldn’t understand why everyone just sat there and didn’t run. I made my son disappear somehow and decided there was no way he was staying in this dream! I went into another part of the building and started sending a txt. As I stood there the killer came in and dragged himself right past me and jumped on the shoulders of a woman who was in the room I was standing next to. The noise of desperation she made was really, really loud and scary. I ran up some stairs and heard her making that awful noise as she desperately fought for her life (the noise was really loud).
That one was too close for comfort because he had literally dragged himself right past me to kill this other woman so I decided to wake myself up (I remember the whole dream was in colour and very bright). Since waking up I havent been able to get back to sleep, so here I am at 3.45am now on the internet writing it out!
So if you think you can help me work out the meaning of the dream let me know….. I learnt about two deaths yesterday that were sudden and one completely unexpected (she was hit by a car) and I just wonder if it is because both deaths touched me.
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